Yep. That's what's going on here. One day will be great, an adventure with surprises awaiting us. The next will have me dissolved to tears over school registration or a drip from the a/c vent or figuring out the light switches. I know none of these are truly challenging circumstances, but I have a nagging sense of loss I carry with me into every circumstance. And an inner sense of unsettledness that strikes deeper than any of the unpacked boxes ever could.
I think this is just how it goes with transition. At least my overblown, emotional version of it. But to find inner stability in each day, I am recording my "El Roi moments". El Roi is my favorite name for God. He shows up to Hagar in her brokenness and forgotten state and tells her that He is the God who sees her. What a glorious comfort to be seen and regarded by God!
A few of my El Roi moments have been:
-Friends who bring dinner. And cupcakes...
-Friends coming to help unpack and arrange rooms...
-Jack's prayer has been to have friends his age in the neighborhood. One our third night here he met 3 other boys his age and has been with them pretty much nonstop since then.
-A family sat down next to us in church that just happened to be Ethiopian and invited us that night for an Ethiopian meal!
-At the same church service, we were invited for dessert with 3 other neighborhood families. SO much fun. We have a very friendly neighborhood and we are thankful for that.
The last two were especially meaningful since they happened at church on Sunday. The Sunday before was such a hard day as we were missing our church home so much. The next week, I had friends who were specifically praying for us to be encouraged on Sunday. And that we were.
Even though we left people that are dear to us, we are together. And together we will meet dear people here. And make memories here. And live out God's call on our lives here. I anticipate many more tears 'cause that's just the way I roll. But I also anticipate continued laughter...
(Those are my little white feet on the float in the last picture. Some things never change: like sibling bonding over dumping the Mom! P.S. They asked permission first, which I found adorable)
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Praying for you sweet friend! So so tough! I get this. So encouraged by your post.
I so appreciate your honesty here. Transition IS tough, it's better to face that than gloss over it. Still, glad you can see the positive too.
Is there any way that friend could send me some of those cupcakes? I could use them. I love you.
P.S. Loved seeing my headboard in the picture!
I'll be praying for more El Roi moments that you can stop and see how God is at work and feel His presence with you. Miss you.
I remember when we moved to Lincoln so many years ago - it was SO very hard!! It's when I first truly understood the Girl Scout song we sang when I was little "Make new friends, but keep the old; One is silver and the other's gold."
I don't think your emotions are overblown at all. Moving is almost like starting your life all over again! You're doing great & your kids are so lucky to have you as their mom. I hope that Ethiopian family doesn't have a son who might try to steal Luci away from my boy! :)
Amy
How neat to see tangible answers to prayers! I love thinking about the Lord as El Roi, too, and will continue to pray that He allows you to continue to see His goodness and sense His presence each and every day in each and every circumstance! Love you.
LeAnne
El Roi is my favorite name for God too! Maybe those things aren't the greatest challenges in the world, but they ARE challenges, especially when we are in transition. It doesn't sound overblown and emotional - it sounds totally normal! I'm so glad you can recognize where your heart is in it. I've seen a lot of women go through transition and be blind to it, but then not understand why they're not doing well. I think you're in a really healthy place! And I'm thanking God with you for the El Roi moments. I'll be needing some of those myself when we get there. :)
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