days to remember

June 14 is a day I will always remember. The day my sweet Mommy died. I had a dream night before last that I was able to talk to her again. I held her face in my hands and said through tears "I just miss you so much!" She didn't say anything, she just smiled with a look a love I will never forget. Much like the last interaction I ever had with her. Only in that moment, she was the one cradling my face in her weak little hand. But it was the same look of love.

Today I am remembering that day, but more than that I am remembering her...

Today I am singing the song Yesterday by Switchfoot you can listen to it here). The lyrics that capture my heart today are as follows...

Flowers cut and brought inside

Black cars in a single line

Your family in suits and ties

And you're free

The ache that I feel inside

Is where the light has left your eyes

I'm alone for our last goodbye

But you're free

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday

I still can't believe you're gone

I remember you like yesterday, yesterday

And until I'm with you, I'll carry on

Adrift on your ocean floor

I feel weightless, numb and sore

A part of you in me is torn

And you're free

I woke from a dream last night

I dreamt you were by my side

Reminding me I still had life

in me

I'll carry on

Every lament is a love song

yesterday, yesterday

I still can't believe you're gone

So long, my friend, so long

My lament today is a love song. A love song for my Mommy. A love song to my God.

Emma asked if we could use this day to celebrate that Gunga is in heaven instead of being sad that she is gone. Good idea, sweet girl. I know Gunga would approve.