Tuesday, February 9, 2010

That depends on your definition of "Happy"

Happy 1st Birthday, Lulu! That is, if you can call a cough and a fever happy.

Jack has been sick with said cough and fever for the past 4 days. Emmie was home today with a cold. And since it is virtually impossible to keep the older kids from lovin' on their baby sister, it was bound to strike little Lulu too. We managed to hold it off for most of the day. Thankfully, we had great success with having her first year photos taken. I hope to post them soon.

And had some play time...
Along with the daily "walking practice" that she's so proud of...
Despite her generally good spirits, Lulu wasn't quite herself. I tried to make the occasion festive, despite the cloud of malaise floating above, with a few little decorations...
And a cake I attempted to decorate with sprinkles in the shape of Africa...
Lulu hung on through dinner...
Mac and cheese is a new found favorite. Here she is rummaging in the bib for extras...
And she started into dessert with enthusiasm...
But before too long, the fever got the best of her and Lulu's birthday became anything but happy...
Poor baby.

But the picture actually illustrates how conflicted I feel on a day like today. Like the smiling three older kids, I feel so joyful to celebrate the day this precious child entered the world. I could not be happier to know her, to love her, and to call her my daughter.

But, like the crying Lulu, I am also sad. I have been struggling with the other side of her birthday. Not the presents and the candles and the cake and the singing part. This day is worthy of them all. The reality is that I know very little about what this day was like one year ago for a young Ethiopian woman and the precious child she gave birth to, my daughter...
Today I grieve the Ethiopian Mommy who named you "Blessings" even though she would not be able to receive the blessings of who you are for very long. Today I grieve for the Ethiopian Grandmother who must be thinking about her Rediet today. She cared for you so well. She is always in our hearts and our prayers. We honor these women who were there one year ago today, when you entered the world.

And we joyfully receive "Blessings"...the blessings God has poured out on us through you, our Luci May Rediet. We look back to the blessings of His faithfulness to you, and to us, over the past year. And we look forward to the blessings He will bring to this world through your life.

Happy Birthday, sweet baby. You are loved.
And get well soon.

24 comments:

Christy. said...

She is darling!!

Christina said...

Funny and tender.

Thurieyyah said...

HAPPY BIRTDHAY Little Lulu...
what a beautifull post!

Amy said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet daughter. Hope all are feeling better soon.
Blessings,
Amy

Katie said...

That was beautifully written. Happy birthday to Lulu! :)

Tisha Alexander said...

Poor Lulu... Happy Birthday Beautiful baby girl! I also hope you get better soon. All of you.

emily said...

Happy Birthday pretty girl.

Love the cake mom!!!

Mindee said...

Um, Missy? Birthday posts should not make me cry.

Beautifully written, as usual. :)

Anonymous said...

I know it's the pregnancy hormones and all but you must give tissue warnings for your posts! :) Hope Lucy feels better soon!

Kristi J said...

oh, she's too precious...love that sweet girly!! kj

Kristin said...

Happy Birthday. I can't wait to see those pictures. I'm so sad she's sick, but hopefully clears up soon.

Deena said...

What an adorable birthday girl (and birthday outfit)! Beautifully written...

Shan said...

Loved this post, Miss. Such a sweet juxtaposition - your delight in Lulu and your honest, somber perspective about her birthmom. You have a neat heart, friend. Thanks for sharing...

Anonymous said...

Anticipation of the first birthday has been such a mixed bag for me as well- I'm glad to know you had some of the same sadness I am feeling. It is impossible to celebrate without thinking and aching for the birth mom and family on this day- but I think that it is a good and necessary reminder of the awe and appreciation felt for the first women in their lives even if it is so difficult... Lulu might be the cutest thing to ever step foot in Nebraska, and i hope she feels back to her smiley self soon.

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

Awwww......no good. Praying she is feeling better soon!

Happy Birthday!!!!

asian~treasures said...

HoneyGirl says, "Happy Day, baby Luci," as she dances around the room.

LOVE the sprinkles of Africa on her cake & that's a super-cute birthday outfit, too!!

Birthday's, Gotcha Day's, some holidays always get me...but, that's something that Luci will cherish later...knowing her birthfamily wasn't forgotten!

: )

Kim said...

happy happy birthday sweet luci. missy, you inspire me in so many ways :)

the Ecclestons said...

Missy....she is just so beautiful! I LOVE the outfit for #1! Such a great post....tears and thankfulness to know and look up to someone so great!

mary said...

Happy Birthday Lucy! So sweet! We just got on the waiting list and as excited and thrilled as I am, I also can't help thinking about a mother who has to make such a heart-wrenching decision. And, in a very small way because I know I have no idea what she is going through, grieving with her. Thank you for sharing this!

Mandy said...

Very sweet post. Hope she feels better soon. You may want to make more cake when she feels better so she can enjoy it. ya know, any excuse to make more cake.

Janell said...

Happy birthday to your sweet Lulu. She's a doll. So sad her birthday had to fall on a sick day. :(

Janell said...

I forgot to mention, the framed photo is actually a hand made card (found on Etsy) with Africa cut out of a page in the Bible. And obviously a heart over ET. I got them last Christmas so not sure they are still around.

Sarah said...

Oh my goodness, she is just too cute!
And I love that cake!
Feel better Lulu!

amy kieser said...

Your sprinkle Africa was better than my backwards pancake Africa! However, my pancake heart may have looked more like Africa than either of our true Africa efforts!
It's weird because I felt happy/sad, too. I love you. I love that little girl.